you're a mystery yourself

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

11:28 PM

Unforgettable Moments.

Moments that I will never forget.

Moments that I will cherish forever in my heart.

I've had moments that i can't forget in this lifetime or the next.

Memories that can never be forgotten and will look back from time to time.

I can remember these memories very vividly.

These memories where i laughed, cried, scared, sad, happy, and all other kinds of emotions a human can have.

These moments are with my beloved friends.

Friends that will also never be forgotten because they have made such a huge impact in my life.

and there's also my enemies, where they made me tough and where i had some good times.

Wished i cherished all the time i had with them. Time passed so quickly, and i couldnt realize it til it was the end.

It was an ending where everybody was seperating and starting a new road. A road that will distant each other and never be the same again.

I miss these moments and would do anything to have them back.

But i can't. It's not possible.

But there is always the future. I can have a chance to cherish the moments i have in the future.

But it will never be the same.

NEVER. AGAIN.

&the beauty.

12:39 AM

A Disappointment in Life.

I'm disappointed.

I was expecting something that turned out to be...

a DISASTER.

It was a great journey and i thought that in the end, it would have a great outcome. However, i was wrong. It lead me to be disappointed, even though i looked up to it.

I slowly did everything, different from my usual style.

But i ask myself, why did i expect such a great expectation?

I got my hopes up and was excited. When i got the answer, i was devestated and broken. This was a waste of time, a horrible outcome, and one of my many disappointments in life.

This made me very sad, and i am still sad. I hope i can forget it and get passed it like the others.

But not all of my others have been forgotten, but instead, they have been sticking to my memory and reminding me.

Will this one stick like the others OR

Will they be forgotten like many?

I will have to wait for a while to see what will happen.

&the beauty.

3:28 AM

Sacrifices MUST to be Made.

Great for Girls Looking to Get Back in Shape.

Killed by Marco. x.X

Following his torture Diet

Sacrifices have to be made to reach one's goal. My goal is to lose some weight, so he gave me some tips. I HAVE TO CUT SO MUCH such as not eating fruit after dinner, no cold cuts, no cake, no ice cream, no candy, no JUNK FOOD. PERIOD.

I am going to die from his diet.

ONE MUST MAKE A HUGE SACRIFICE IN THEIR LIVES TO REACH THEIR OWN GOAL.

as you see here. I'm going to do that.

Ever had a goal that you wanted to complete so much?

I tell you that in the end, when you complete it, you will feel refreshed and accomplished. But you have to make sacrifices such as eating diets.

Perseverance & Patience is the key to a complete a goal.

I, for one will try. Don't know if i will make it. I might die from all the cuts i have to make from my diet that I'm so used to.

I see why your clients hate you MARCO.

I'm starting to feel what they felt.

Hate YoU!

ALSO, killed by YoU.

PEOPLE WHO ARE READING THIS. if you're cutting down on things you love, you know how i feel.

A LOT OF SUFFERING!

TONS.

Mr. Burns from SIMPSONS=MARCO.

period.

EVERYTHING IS A BIG NO NO TO YOU!

&the beauty.

12:49 AM

Unraveling the Mysteries of Life.

"What will happen after i pass away? Will my life end or continue?"

-a question that cannot be answered.

:) Marco gave me this topic. Thank yous for it (>o<).

"What's going to happen after I die? Will i continue living, in the skies, in heavens? Will i reincarnate?"

This question comes up in my mind once in a while. I'm not a religious person, but one can't help think what's going to happen to them.

PLEASE NOTICE that this question can be argued over and over again. But nobody can ever have a correct answer to this question.

Will life just end like that?

Since I am athiest and don't believe in any higher power, i think that life just ends that way. But at the same i think that those who are deceased, turn into spirits and watch over you. I'm intertwined between my traditions in Chinese heritage and my own beliefs.

I think in the end, I believe that a person's life comes to an end and that is all that will happen. You are born into this world, to do what your meant to do, and then will eventually die. Death is bound to happen.

No One can live eternally.

What should I do? Have you ever been that way?

It's a huge complication for me. But it doesnt bother me much because i want to enjoy life as it is. I dont want to think about death yet. I believe that i'm still far away before i reach that point.

People like me are going constantly asking that question to themselves. They make Death such a big deal that they forget to live the life they got. But once they run out of time, they realize what they've done and it's already too late.

Just live your life to the full extent and whatever that may happen later on, its meant to be.

No One will have the answer to this question because no one actually knows.

So Dont waste anymore time on wondering about your after life.

Don't be waste you Life away.

Lifes too short.

Cherish it.

Thanks Marco.

&the beauty.

11:53 PM

Ever had a question that you couldn't answer when it was right under your nose?

I had that experience, while i was talking to two of my beloved friends.

Realized that the guy, was not a crush, but a person that i amazed. That guy is named Raymond, and i realized that he just matched all the requirements i look for every guy. Who couldn't resist such a person?

The good thing is that you realize and have your answer, so you don't have to wander forever. The best thing to do is just let your mind go blank, and don't keep trying to find the answer but the answer will come to you eventually when the time is right.

I think that this guy will only be my friend or more but nothing close to a lover. The question came up to my readers and asked, "Do i actually like him?"

I had to hesitate but in the end, i knew i didnt like him but...just looked up him cause he was perfect, in my opinion.

Now that i found my answer, i can have a good nights sleep without wondering over and over again.

thank you to those who have helped me realize this.

(^o^)

&the beauty.

1:44 AM

Have you ever met a person that left you an impression that you can't forget?

You think about this person all day and all night.

An unforgettable memory, picture, or scene that is stuck in your head.

I met a person like that today. He's nice and in my opinion, totally cute. He is a freshmen in college. Going to Harvard this year. I remember his face, his hair, his fashion style, and most of all his BLUE EYES. Those eyes were unbelievably pretty. Never seen a pair of eyes like those.

If a person leaves such an impression on you, does that mean you like him? respect him? What does it mean? i doubt i like him. But he's just an amazing person. REally Amazing! A nice person who you can trust and a person that many will love.

I think that in the future, he will become a pal, a friend,a comrade, a person that i will cherish a lot. A person that i wont forget when i grow older. An important person, like the rest of the people i cherish in my heart. <3

People that i can trust and reveal my true self.

&the beauty.

4:54 PM

I wonder sometimes in my life whether people can be trusted or not? Do people cherish what they have? Can all my questions be answered? I, for one, who have many questions, do not have many answers. I wonder a few times a day, whether the people around me are actually my friends, whether i should open my heart to them and let them in, or whether these people will betray me in the end or not. I tell you people, those who make new friends should BEWARE of these kinds of people because once your friends with them and you trust them, they might stab you in the back and hurt scar you deeply. Once you've been scarred, that scar will never go away, but be with you forever.

Do not be fooled. I am just an average teenager looking for an answer to a difficult question. People around me have betrayed me, lied to me, fought with me, and all kinds of things that regular human beings do.
Some are scared to even face up to me and express their own feelings because deep inside them, they are just a wuss. They are a coward that can't stand up for themselves but spread lies about me to others that i cherish. They hurt my feelings deeply, but that person can't realize that. They think I'm tough person, but everyone has delicate feelings and weak spots. These people that do these things are bound to be disliked in the future or even disliked at this very moment because of their ugly attitude.

People that betrays ones trust are called Betrayers. Betrayers are people that i can't forgive. I trusted one person and told her everything i knew. But in the end, she told everything to everyone and twisted my words around causing me to lose trust in everyone and made me aware who was my friend and who wasn't. It was then when I realized the boundaries, and thought that I cant tell anyone my secrets. She made me question a lot of things and scarred me deeply in my heart. I can't forgive her at all, but she doesn’t realize that I know what she did to me. This stupid idiotic girl thinks I like her and love her as a friend.

Til this day, i hate her from the bottom of my heart and i dont think that i will ever forgive her at all. A few people have realize her true attitude but most of them are blinded by her fake kindness.
I wonder whether people will take their blinds off and realize what her true self is? what do you think?

&the beauty.